Fool On The Hill
I never asked to be the Fool On The Hill
Who would want that job?
No health insurance
Microwaved breakfast, lunch and dinner
No lodging, no spouse
You have to withstand all kinds of weather
Snow
And that icy wind that settles in
And freezes the marrow in your bones
OK, I got GOD’s mercy, I get it
As is the common lot
Of all Fools On The Hill ever
And that’s everything, I’m aware
But must the price be
That I maintain this position
And serve perennially
As the honorary Fool On The Hill
Aren’t their term limits
Health insurance
Other than the Medicare disadvantage plan
Or a retirement juxtaposition?
I walk through the mall
And soak in humanity
To be with my
Gross conscious
Human brothers and sisters
But I don’t talk
I use the latest, greatest ear buds
To deflect everyone’s thoughts
To deflect their fantasy
As I bounce along in my own world
With my own beat
There are couples just beginning relationships
Some together, some in trouble,
And those beings of endless beauty – children
Carriages, cripples, and gentle folk alike
I walk through them and with them
And in them
Nameless
As I walked past Lord & Taylors
And the loud inner voice comments
“I am not your pimp.”
I asked why?
It said, “Because it’s all made up for karma
By sanskaras, natural and unnatural
If I go in there and screw around
I’ll have to rewire the whole thing
But if it’s in the cards
That I rewire the whole thing
Consider them rewired
Struggling to absorb
The silence at the open core of love
If I’m successful – that’s my offering
If I’m unsuccessful – that’s also my offering
As long as I give my best
There is no true humility without humiliation
Struggle, improvise, grow, evolve, transmute
I keep repeating like a mantra
The mall is my last audience, my only audience,
Today my brain got machine gunned with ideas
So that I had to stop at the dollar store
To buy a pen and notebook
As I walk, I stop when I get an idea
Move to the side, and write it down,
People ask me what I’m doing, and I reply
“I’m writing about the Mall
And they walk away seemingly contented
Other people just look
As if to say
“What’s that?” Thinking I’m a monitor
As I mentally project
“No I’m just an opinionated reporter
From a great metropolitan newspaper
I refuse to be tattooed
With the overblown political sophistication
I wallow in the mire
I’m on the sacrificial altar
The dust at the feet of nothingness
I am washed up on the shore
Of the holy flowing wine of love
And the more they attempt to destroy the still
The more intoxicating the wine becomes
Like a gambler on an endless winning streak
Like some deep, mysterious mojo, but enduring
Like a holy dynamism that protects and defends us
And it’s easy to see how poverty is the seed of wisdom
Poverty of the heart
From not being able to love
Poverty of the soul
From not being able to have faith
These are the real poor
Not those dancing in the courtyard
’Neath the star swept twilight
At the wedding celebration
With
Or without a fervent and persistent desire
To renunciate for his sake
And for our own
Perhaps sapphire blue, or chartreuse
Or american rose
An elaborately intricate
Involution
Blossoming through a random mirror
Shadow of the stone
Into the universal grinding wheel
And then it turns
And then it grinds us
Priceless pearls, wisdom gold
Yet, the nearer the oblivion
The finer the wine
The impermanence of everything
The transience
Nothing lasts,
Some grand joke
That practically no-one gets
When broken on the crying rock
Weeping blood
Even as partakers of the great festivals of light
With preternatural moon-glow
Wild rides, hootenannies, ceremonies, war stories
Phantoms, heroes
Heads of state roll
And impossibly twisted evolutionary schemes and themes
And memes
We watch
In all complexity is simplicity
Waiting in exile – waiting for our hearts
To discover, to know
To be made aware
Beneath the vast apparent veil
Until we take off our famous masks
Dancing in the courtyard
’Neath the star swept midnight
At the wedding celebration
They served me a love sick cabernet
The pineal drips
The kundalini rockets
The crown chakra fountains
With cleansing streams
Of glorious blossoms
As the gatekeeper is drunk tonight
We might be able to sneak by
The gate to the nether temple is rich
Beyond thought
So I bow to the dust
What I never knew
Has overcome me
And my cup runneth over with love
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